it's raining and i don't have an umbrella

some days i walk around with my own personal cloud hanging over my head and it's only raining on me.

and i don't want to do anything except stay in bed with the quilt up over my head

i can see a little patch of blue sky through the window and i can watch it for hours and hours

but it never gets closer to me

the sun is shining outside

but inside it's raining

and I don't have an umbrella

keeping it real

i read somewhere that sometimes things have to fall apart before they can fall together.
what i want to know is how often do they have to fall apart?
it seems to me that as soon as i get it all together something happens to rip it all apart.
then i have to reassemble the pieces and hope i can make them fit.

and sometimes they don't all fit together

and sometimes i have a piece left over

what do i do with it?

is it any wonder why i am angry, confused, worried, frustrated and sad?

i can't sleep

can't think

can't focus

i have so many questions and NO answers!

are you there god? it's me laura and we need to talk.....

Happiness is......

"I think I'm afraid to be happy, because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens."--Charlie Brown